A few might have seen on facebook or discovered while trying to look at my site that everything was down and out.  The host I researched forever and pay monthly to maintain my website and blog lost one of their servers so my site and blog were completely erased  and the backup failed, (I know it's hard to believe they wouldn't have a foolproof backup).  I found this out at 11pm on Wednesday night, I was frantic.....anyone who knows me knows that I am a perfectionist and completely obsess about certain things.  The thought of my site being down and having to rebuild from scratch made me twitch, it originally took me two weeks of crazy computer time, ignoring my kids and not being very nice to my sweet husband all to get my new and improved site and blog up at the end of march before I left on vacation. I couldn't bear the thought of putting my family through that again, two more weeks of misery?  That would mean a month of a horrible mom for what - a website?  My personality was pushing me towards working nonstop again but the one thing that thankfully stopped the insanity, wailing and gnashing of teeth was the fact that I was editing a Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep shoot when I found out the news.  I have had the privilege of photographing 6  different angels in the month of may, these shoots really put things into perspective.  Did I get teary and have a bit of a meltdown when I found out about my site?  Yes, but instead of putting my blinders on and ignoring everything around me until the problem is resolved , I did my best to put it out of my mind, realized that I didn't have any control over the situation and  after going back and forth with the CEO of that great company that hosted my site, went down at 2 am and gently kissed my little girls, brushed their blonde curls away from their sweet faces and watched them sleep.  I avoided the internet for 24 hours while my husband and I went to Red lodge to celebrate our anniversary, and resisted the urge to get on every computer that we walked by.  Yes I am very proud of myself for growing during this week, and thankful for the opportunity that I have to volunteer for the great organization that helps me stay focused on what is really important. Thank goodness for my techie friend  Sean who happened to back up my blog on his server before we switched and upgraded in March, I learned a two days ago that he was able retrieve all of my posts up until three months ago,  I pieced the remainder of the blog back together, they aren't all there and do not have the exact same wording but if you are looking at my work for the first time you can get a good idea of what I have done the past few months.... And the website, well that is a work in progress, I do need to rebuild from scratch but am about 45% done so look for it to go live hopefully in the next week.  Thanks for your patience, I am still scheduling and am really looking forward to my sessions this coming week!!  Shooting is my favorite part, and makes all of this craziness well worth it!! I can't help posting a pic, this is from one of the surprise father's day shoots that a few clients have booked (what a great gift for dad!)  I can't wait to show you more from the shoot but it will have to wait until after dad gets his surprise. 🙂